07 December 2015

kebahagiaan "lain macam"

#lainmacam

kebahagiaan sesungguhnya
kebahagiaan inilah yang paling "lain mcam"
apabila dapat membahagiakan seorang insan begelar IBU
senyuman itu
airmata kegembiraan itu
semua dia telah labuhkan dihadapanku
lalu aku menjadi....
tenang....
senang....
hati ini tak gundah lagi

bahagianya aku bila Mama bahagia
memang kali ini
perasaan itu
kebahagiaan itu
kebahagiaan sesungguhnya
kebahagiaan yang "lain macam"

segalanya untukmu Mama
#wanitapermaisurijantunghati

Dari,
Anakmu

xoxoxo

20 November 2015

tazkirah Juma'at

salam jumaat =)

semalam dan hari ni
sumpah hectic
ada pergaduhan besar kat office
satu owner mmg kaya bapak siak
and satu lagi biasa je kot tapi...
poyo je lebeyyyy
dia dah tahu dia baru je pindah sini
boleh tak habiskan baca buku
"House Rules" tu???
yg lagi satu
dah tahu buat salah
tak nak mengaku salah
CCTV,gambar,bukti semua ada
kelam lah sikit dua hari ni
heuheuheuhue...

yg pasti
semua pergaduhan yang terjadi
pada hari ini dan semalam
selesai jua akhirnya

ok
back to tazkirah juma'at
sepanjang-panjang kehidupan ni lah kan
ada tak pernah kita terfikir
aissh..
berapa kilo dah dosa aku bawak selama ni?
berapa byk dah amalan yg boleh tebus dosa2 tu?
tetiba jek kan
saja nak sesembang
asal Jumaat je mesti kena Islamic gituh! HAHA
saje je..

kadang2 kita nak stop lakukan sesuatu
yg mendatangkan dosa
kunun2 nak stop
last2....ke laut~~~~

manusia,
setiap ketika ada perubahannya
jika cepat,mungkin haru
jika lambat,usaha dan ketabahan jua penentu

bersabarlah

.: rindunya kat org Kedah (`_`) :.

xoxoxo

07 November 2015

Locked Away - Locking myself up from the people around me

if I got locked away,
and we lost it all today,
tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?
 
if I show you my flaws,
if I couldn't be strong,
tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?
 
 
xoxoxo

05 November 2015

Kazim Raza Naqib :) Raza for short

for starts,
it seems soo awkward to tell about this guy
he is a Pakistani & Malay
so..half-half lah..
but never admit that he is Malay..lol..

finance is what he do for a living
i hate numbers!

alright,
the meanest freakiest worst thing happened yesterday was...
im not liking him at all !
he is trying to seduce me and stuffs but...
my heart is not there..
not with him..
not at all

so to say,
my heart now just really goes to someone
that not, never ever even care about,
what I ate for my lunch,
whom im talking to while im in the train,,
although he knows I barely use my car to work,
he never asks,
but my heart is jump right on to him,
until now~~ I just met him several times,
but he never replies me back

sorry Mr Raza,
I know u seems so nice to me,
although u r totally busy with your schedule and stuffs
not even have time for yourself

im not ready to be owned by anyone except my family and my best friends

Not for you now Raza,
have too much for you KH

"im my dreams you are mine, in my life you are a dream"

xoxoxo

28 October 2015

Vape Fest at Ruang USJ 6, Subang Jaya

kan gua dah cakap gua,,,
"havoc, havoc,, ehh havoc,havoc,ehh"
budak subang jaya memang ada gaya, mcm hari2, hari raya

aku budak KJ skrg..
hahaha..
bru dpt kerja area subang parade..
alhamdullillah, hidup kembali teratur..

almost byk kali nk kantoi ngan boss sbb bukak fb
now aku sibuk bukak blog je..
dia xlah mahir sgt sal blogging..kottt....

ok..malas nk ngarut pepanjang

aku slah sorg vapers kat Malaysia neh..
bru2 ni ada event kat RUANG USJ6
sungguh seronok
and dpat first runner up utk cloud chaser competition!
good and nice one for the first timer!!!
weee~~!!!!

got to go
muaahh!

xoxoxo
 
 

24 October 2015

sarang lelabah

berdirinya aku di pagi ini
bukan sbb nak berdiri
tapi kena kuatkan iman dan semangat
utk bekerja full-day
hari Sabtu
nice kan?............... sangat...

tak byk pn nk ctew kat sini
yelah
baru je mulakan hidup yg semmgnya perit suka duka neh

malas nak wat breakdown utk permasalahan aku
ada dr segi mentally
emotionally
financially
......
wat noktah je lah..
anggap dugaan tu sbb
Allah sayang
sudah... kan

pasal sarang lelabah neh
mmg lama dah tak update blog sbb umah xda wifi
nk guna hp mcm nauzubillah bapak ssh seyh
sooo....
keep my hands and mouth shut lah

ni pn xleh lama..
boss dah dtg

xoxoxo

28 March 2015

PRINCE CHARMING IS COMING DOWN BABEH


Holla!

Its been a while im away from my lovely blog

Start to packs up things and stuffs

What stuffs im saying now?

My new life and my new career, not really a new career but a new motivation to work

Maybe all of you didn't know what happen to my new year 2015

"I've tried to kill the pain, but only brought more, so much more"

The sentence stands by itself,

I'm returning to my normal life, my normal orientation, my normal sensual feeling and my normal love to an opposite gender

It has been 10years i've been living with a women or girl or ladies or butch,

and i never realize that until my sister, Kak Nora asked me like seriously in uncomfortable talk while driving to her house last week,

"Yun, how long have you been like this?", "Let me see..... I broke up with my first boy was in 2008, and that time i was 18yrsold, now im 27yrsold....."

Ding!

That exact moment, i counted everything and .......... im speechless

i has been like 7 years im being with the same fucking gender as me!?
by that time IF im being with a boy, i must been marrying that boy which will be turn to a guy/ a husband and a father perhaps!!! ;(

Sadly, Allah wrote the different path for me which is more prettier and beautiful enough and im thankful and grateful for these moment lah 

Alright, igot to go,
Some works to be done!
See ya soon

xoxoxo